How long ?!

" Have you ever wondered why it is that you love him so ? " The wind was picking up and they were sitting precariously close to the edge.

" I don't know. I just do. ", she was looking down at the lights of the city shining up at them, full of hopeful illusions.

" You know he doesn't deserve it.  "

" I know. ", the  two words filled her with a hollowness like something on the verge of dying, trying to take it's last breaths. Fingers clawed at the granules of the cement, as her hands gripped the floor of the ground she sat on.

" You know what you need to do right ? You deserve so much better. He's hardly ever done anything for you. You can't make a foundation of your memories for your tomorrows. It's been years of you giving and him taking. If you aren't ever happy, how long do you think you can make this work all on your own, fighting against everyone, even yourself ?

A tear dropped followed by another, then another. She wiped them off angrily with the back of her hand , the granules of sand and dirt scratched at her eye. She smiled at the burn it caused.

" Just till the time I know I have nothing more left in me to give. ", with that she stood up and went back to the memory she knew she would eventually have to leave behind.